i've been avoiding this

since i don't feel like typing out the WHOLE story, i suppose i'll just paraphrase it:

alex(former best friend) texts me after she reads my response to her immature bulletin, telling me that ANNA told her and hope that taylor and i were shit talking the both of them. and saying things like her and alex(ex boyfriend) don't care about me enough to go through the trouble to hurt my feelings and she "didn't know" we were still friends on myspace and all this other complete bullshit. she continues by insulting taylor and i's friendship, calls us cunts and bitches and then tells taylor to go fuck me. my initial response was "well, alright if that's what you think" but eventually i say 'sorry for hurting your feelings' because taylor and i said we didn't want her to go to the atal concert with us. (which is reasonable, i think. and not considered shit talking.) so two days later we all meet up- taylor, me, hope, and alex- and discuss it. and anna had told them a bunch of bullshit so they, in turn, told anna that i shit talked her. which i would never ever do. anna was my very best friend. i never expressed anything but concern for her. (like when she got back together with the boy that drove her to try to kill herself and landed her in a mental institution.) there were lots of tears. and thankfully, i made alex feel like a big piece of shit for dating my abusive exboyfriend. "i can hardly look at you, haylee," she said, as i'm sobbing in the middle of the waffle house over the complete chain of backstabbing that has been going on. anna has yet to talk to me. i'd really like to say something to her, but i just can't find the words.

yesterday i had an emotional breakdown. i'm failing anatomy miserably, i've been single for 9 months, and i have one friend(don't get me wrong, taylor's the best friend i've ever had and more than i could ever ask for). so i feel like a giant piece of shit. what am i going to do if i can't get through this?